Sebastian's Dream

Exploring & Discovering The Beauty In Autism and the Autistic Child


From the Beginning....

Posted on July 23, 2017 at 5:35 PM

From the moment of conception, I had Sebastian's entire life planned from beginning to end. He was going to go to Gymboree for socialization, University of Chicago Lab School for his first 9 years, Walter Payton High School and then off to the Ivy Leagues, maybe even Oxford! I had his name picked out on a trip to breakfast! My husband, Dennis and I were on our way to Cracker Barrel when we were discussing names. We discussrd several options, when he discovered I only had boy names. He asked me, "What if its a girl?" I told him it was not and that there was no doubt in my mind that we were having a boy, therefore, I had no girl names in mind. 

I always loved the name Sebastian. Not sure why, but it just had something about it. So as we were driving, I suggested the name to my hubby and we started to look up what the name meant. The one thing we did not want was to give our child a meaningless name to carry around forever. Sebastian means venerable, revered, one who is deeply respected and/or admired. Sebastian was also a martyred 3rd century Roman soldier made into a saint. How could you not love a name like that. As for the middle name, I tossed around a few, but then Xavier just seemed to flow with Sebastian and knowing that Xavier meant savior did'nt hurt. So by 9:00 AM on a Saturday morning, I had Sebastian Xavier Davis's name and life all figured out. 

Sebastian had to be the easiest pregnancy on the planet! He hardly moved my entire pregnancy. I had no crazy cravings, no weird or wild urges, no sleepless nights, minimal morning sickness (which for me occurred at night) and absolutely no pain. He was conceived at the best time of the year, I found out I was pregnant in August and he was born in April, so I spent very little time in the summer heat. The biggest issues surrounding my pregnancy were my age, gestational diabetes, high blood pressure and the fact that I would have to deliver by Cesarian, otherwise absolutely no concerns. Believe it or not, there were upsides to those issues. I was forced to change my diet, because I am the worlds worst junk food junky, which helped me to lose weight during my pregnancy. With a Cesarian, I knew that I would not be in as much pain as I would if I were delivering vaginally. 

I remember the day Sebastian was born like it was yesterday. I woke up on Sunday, April 18, 2010 at 6:30 AM as usual. I remember watching RV with Robin Williams and thinking as I looked over at my husband, as soon as you wake up, you're going to get me a Gyro. With that in mind, I began to plan out the rest of my day. I was going to go downstairs, do a load of laundry and let the dog out, although not specifically in that order. Well what do you know, that's not how my day went at all. I went downstairs, let the dog out, and went to start a load of laundry. As I was coming up the stairs, my mom asked if I was alright. I told her I was but that I just kept going to the bathroom on myself. She immediately said, "Maybe you should contact the doctor." I contacted Rush University Medical and the doctor was paged. He called me back and I described what I was feeling. I thought he would tell me to just continue my pregnancy on bed rest for the remaining three week, which is when Sebastian was actually due. Once again, that's not how it happened, the doctor suggested I come in. The entire time, I'm still not feeling any pain. I go and pack a bag and off my husband, my mom and myself go to the hospital. I get checked in and the nurses place me in a holding area in labor and delivery. Still feeling no pain. 

As I lay there silently waiting for my turn at bat, the woman next to me was screaming as if her life were ending. When I did make a sound, it was only a slight grunt. The nurse then asked me if everything was alright. I told her it was, that the baby just shifted, however I keep going to the bathroom on  myself. She reached under to check for dialation and said, "Oh no! This baby is coming now!" I was rushed to another room where I waited for a delivery room to become available. Once in the delivery room, I was shot 4 times with the numbing medication, because of my high tolerence to medication and was ready for Sebastian's arrival. 

I was awake the entire time, with my head constantly tilted to the left because I kept throwing up off of the medication, but after what felt like an eternity, at 2:32 PM, the love of my life was welcomed into the world. What was to follow would almost take the life out of me.......

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